Thank You

While occasionally venting frustration now and perfectly forever, this daunting and prodigiously supportive experience, I have faith has and will forge bonds that will allow me to provide what I have received.  I feel exceptionally lucky to have been chosen to participate in this mind bending, ego crushing experience, backed by such faith and belief of success by such a large body of people.  I truly feel honored.

As for the first step of giving back I feel like I want to hug and kiss every one of you just after I vomit in my mouth a little.  Love you guys.

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Art Housers

You know, I’m really starting to come around to yous people.  I mean, my first reaction to 2 hour dodgy storylines years ago that had less depth than one of my little rinky dink blogs had me perturbed.  But now I see that the simplicity in patronizing and your calculated misfires are a real hoot on the old mente building and completely make up for historic amercian filmaking.    I fully welcome you to the schizoid club.

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A Virtual Chess Board

9781592573165You guys are freakin hilarious.  So you have questions….Well hopefully this thread answers your perceptions because the words you guys are using are telling me that you are confused.  I get the test you are providing, it’s moot, but you want proof.  The answers you formulate for yourselves should be about yourselves, not about me….but I digress :)

There wasn’t a monk in the monestary that I did not connect with emotionally on their issue.  Which ended rarely quickly cause those guys are full, and you wonder why I got so quickly bored in the monastery.  1/5 of us get it almost instantaneously.  4/5 of you guys have to be told over and over and over and over again before it sinks in.  Why I have a tendency to choose the mature male monks you ask?

There are some people who feel like they are in a virtual game of chess where, say a bishop who is taking in the pawns, kings and queens and horses energy that reside adjacent.  Now when the queen is attacking it’s own bishop with something that is not conducive to the inherent nature and is done so for years very early in the development, what you want to do is move a horse or king between the both of you.  What you look for is someone you think can protect you with and equal amount of the opposing energy that is capable of deflecting that type of intense emotion.  It’s like a constant real time virtuoso game.  It was and is about protection.  It’s almost as if it’s tactile experience.  The only problem I have with the psychology of it (while its great for deconditioning from childhood that entered the mind) it takes no account for this real time tactile body experience which also can effect the mood greatly.  I dump out everything in the forrest and I’m an empty vessel, come back to a smorgishboard and I’m filled up with junk.

When one’s focus is the big screen, due to it’s predominant energetic seat, giving a test on the individual level is ill advised because projectors focus on one thing at a time. Interestingly enough I can talk about my reproductive system all day while routinely visiting a place where hormones average 418 percent that of the average person because it made up a collective consciousness.  And who out there thought I wasn’t being real?  What a joke.

The mistake is that some of you out there in the hood thought there were conscious decisions being made.  So this illustrates someone who can focus on one thing at a time, but allow many different things in subconsciously (via the body) that are swirling around the environment and blurt out a combination (hybrid) of everything happening.  Maybe some of that is the energy you used to screw someone else over because you are still carrying that with you for someone like me to sit in that space and show it to you again.  Maybe some of it is playing out for the women who have been raped.  And maybe some of it is playing out adult perspectives that seemed entangled in adolescent experiences.  I mean shit, I played out the role of an asshole father from a woman who is a cyborg from planet zoltar, you think that’s something I consciously did?  And you can play them out all at the same time.  You guys think you know me?  How? Im just an example of the environment I reside in.  There’s no thing to know about me.  In fact you are not here to know me, you are here to know yourselves, so direct those questions inward.

Interestingly enough what I believe I also played out was how a community of aspiring actors who do nothing but jab at each other while a group of pedophiles sit at the top of Hollywood and molest kids who can then be sent out to contribute to more self hatred into the community, where the community members can play ping pong with them cause well..they  probably hate themselves too with no one publishing or magnifying in the media that these pedophiles in this town have protected Michael Jackson so they wouldn’t get exposure, so they can hence keep raping children.  The rest are just ripping off my ideas.

This is not to say that I am not super, super grateful for the ones that were able to help me resolve early programming that when embedded can enter the mind and turn pathological.    But to an HSP is seems more like an exogenous virus than any sort of addictive quality because it’s more real time, which is more about perceiving with the body, not the mind.  You have to surround yourself around people with conducive energy so that when you feel someone about to come in with something all it takes is a move of your horses to offset that trajectory.  But that’s when you have novice to the dynamics.  I’m needing no one right about now.

While my heart is centered, the financial level makes up a part of your spirituality, So about my historical earnings….there seems to be disagreement and miscommunication about my smorgasbord involvement.  It will probably gets worse before it gets better. :)  Until then you can call me Jesus, a Jesus that is about to pop off on your convenient constitution.

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Shtick Update

You know, I would think at this point the team is just looking for a way to dole out funds evenly to the community cause we are really stretching at this point in the vain of “you are only as good as your last game,” we are entering a parody of ourselves.  Next game…and thanx!

And by the way, I can’t help to say that I am damn proud of myself, cause I have this habit of subconsciously playing disowned parts, which of course involves removing yourself from that which isn’t all that it is cracked up to be by a far margin.  I’d like to call you a bunch of baby animals, from monks to sloths, yeh that’s right everyone, but I’ll call you holographically challenged, like as in a planet, seriously.  And you wonder why I got world domination personality disorder?

So I am starting my endeavor of clinic life, urgently I might add, while maybe a little tap dancing in the arts part time, maybe an expose on a few incredibles in consciousness.  And this book I have in my head……  Where my agents at?

egolessness“It’s not egotistical if it’s entertaining.” – Expeller pressed corn

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